First entry...

Today was a rough day for me. I cried a lot questioning why over and over again. This road is definitely not the path I would have chosen. It is very lonely even being surrounded by an amazing support group. I miss my husband and the support he could offer right now. In my head, the best thing would be for him to come home and hold me. However; God's arms are doing just that holding me up. I read Ps. 19:7 "The law of the Lord is perfect, reviving the soul." How encouraging that God's word revives my soul every day as I get into His word. There is no way I could have the peace I have tonight after a day like today with out God's amazing love. As I learn more and more about my Savior, I'm humbled to think that He loves me so. Well this is hopefully the first of many entries. I think this will be good for me to write down how I'm feeling and then see how God works. Now I'm off to bed because 5:30 am comes so very early. One more struggle to get up and go to work, but God is faithful this I do know. For those who don't know why work is such a struggle. Troy was taken to the hospital I work at and that is where his heart finally stopped beating on this earth. So every time I go there it brings back those memories of that day so vividly for me. Ok I'm off for now....